Letters Written in White

What\'s worse, living when you want to die or dying while you\'re fighting to live? \n I’m dead. \n I’m cold and alone and I’m dead. There’s no air in my lungs. My chest is as cold and hollow as a cave on a snowcapped mountain side. My heart no longer beats there. \n Frigid winds whistle through my ribs and the sadness inside me weeps like my favorite tree. \n Days ago, I met with death face to face. \nThe mirror, our meeting place. My two darkened green eyes stared deeply into hers. \nI tilted my head to the side. She did too. \n“It’s time,” I whispered. “It’s time,” she whispered. \n And with that I turned away from her, the woman in the mirror who knew all of my secrets and all of my pain. I walked away from her and yet we’d never been closer than we were in that moment. \nThe inner struggle was over. \nNo more arguing with the woman in the mirror. \nNo more arguing with myself. \nThe choice was made. \nShe was the victor. Or was I? \n That was the day Riah Winter died.